It is hard to believe we are at a point where the baby could safely come at any time. Hard to believe that just in January, this baby was a tiny embryo that was living in a dish until transferred to me to care for.
I have not been too talkative ... I tend to close up a bit the closer to due dates I get. The OB can tell me only so much about how things are going, but in the end the baby ultimately decides when things will really start moving along. Typically I do not share too much either about what the OB says, just because it really does not matter - obviously I let the IPs know because they have a lot at stake and travel plans to consider and think about. Things are progressing, baby is head down and doing great. Those are important facts :)
I keep picturing the birth and being able to in a perfect situation, hand baby to mom and dad ... I can't imagine the feelings in that moment but I am so excited for them. Even more so, I can not imagine their feelings and emotions right now and every day leading up to that moment. This has been a pretty incredible journey and one that I still feel so lucky to have been a part of.
I get questions if I will do this again. The simple answer is no. There was nothing that went wrong, nothing I would change - but being pregnant takes a lot physically, emotionally and in terms of time. I knew going into this journey that it would be my only one as well. I wanted to help a family grow and some time this month, that will have happened. And our kids are getting older and just need more of us. From sports/activities, to some medical stuff we are getting under control for one and just watching them grow - I feel like the time is to focus 100% back on their needs even though I feel like, we have done a pretty good job of that these past 1.5 years with everything pregnancy related going on. I hope to bounce back quick to get right back into the chaos of our life!
If you ask my middle what she is most excited for - first she wants to know if baby is a girl or boy (she is hoping a girl, for the record) and then she wants to go ride rides at the big indoor place with me. Sweet girl missed her summer of rides at the amusement park so now she is eyeing the indoor one. I will need to find a way to grab some ride wristbands and make that happen as soon as I can for the kiddos. All of my kids talk to baby - it is pretty sweet. The youngest says "hi baby" quite a bit and hugs my belly. The middle tells baby to come on out that it's parents are waiting and loves it so much. The oldest doesn't necessarily talk to the baby as much - but tells me she is excited for its parents and can't wait to meet this little human.
I could not have gotten through any of this without my husband. From the initial morning sickness when he picked up the slack, to being just tired and he not saying a word when dishes would build up or laundry might be sitting a while ... and now when I am just a bit slower to do stuff. He has never complained. I can't imagine a better person to have at my side for this.
And the kids. Who never complain, who ask the most random of questions at Dr appts perhaps a bit too loud at times while in bathrooms or the office ... and who care for this baby but know that it will soon go live with its mommy and daddy - I look at them every single day and remember why I am doing this. I can not imagine my life without my kids - even on the worst days ever - and I can not imagine the feeling of struggling to have children. To anyone reading who has traveled that dark road, or who is - my heart is with you. I have no clue of what you go through - but my heart is with you and I wish you everything and more.
And my momma. From taking care of the kids while we had appointments and the transfer out of state, to being on call right now for the birth and just overall supporting this even when I think she was a bit nervous for me before it all began ... we never could have made this go as smooth without her support.
And to everyone reading - I truly take every comment and hold it close. I have kept the journey pretty much to the group or my specific IG page not to overwhelm my personal page. So sometimes it feels pretty closed off from everyone since most of you know on my personal page I share our life story through photos and stories ... but knowing I have people supporting me/us and wishing this family the best as we go means a lot.
Now that I have been all sappy and crap. This will probably be the last post before I give birth. Crazy to consider but so exciting. My little one wants more puffs at 8:45am (don't judge, they are organic or something like that) and chocolate (almond) milk and I should get laundry actually started (it is sitting in the wash, just not on quite yet!).
With love and gratitude,
Kristen
I have not been too talkative ... I tend to close up a bit the closer to due dates I get. The OB can tell me only so much about how things are going, but in the end the baby ultimately decides when things will really start moving along. Typically I do not share too much either about what the OB says, just because it really does not matter - obviously I let the IPs know because they have a lot at stake and travel plans to consider and think about. Things are progressing, baby is head down and doing great. Those are important facts :)
I keep picturing the birth and being able to in a perfect situation, hand baby to mom and dad ... I can't imagine the feelings in that moment but I am so excited for them. Even more so, I can not imagine their feelings and emotions right now and every day leading up to that moment. This has been a pretty incredible journey and one that I still feel so lucky to have been a part of.
I get questions if I will do this again. The simple answer is no. There was nothing that went wrong, nothing I would change - but being pregnant takes a lot physically, emotionally and in terms of time. I knew going into this journey that it would be my only one as well. I wanted to help a family grow and some time this month, that will have happened. And our kids are getting older and just need more of us. From sports/activities, to some medical stuff we are getting under control for one and just watching them grow - I feel like the time is to focus 100% back on their needs even though I feel like, we have done a pretty good job of that these past 1.5 years with everything pregnancy related going on. I hope to bounce back quick to get right back into the chaos of our life!
If you ask my middle what she is most excited for - first she wants to know if baby is a girl or boy (she is hoping a girl, for the record) and then she wants to go ride rides at the big indoor place with me. Sweet girl missed her summer of rides at the amusement park so now she is eyeing the indoor one. I will need to find a way to grab some ride wristbands and make that happen as soon as I can for the kiddos. All of my kids talk to baby - it is pretty sweet. The youngest says "hi baby" quite a bit and hugs my belly. The middle tells baby to come on out that it's parents are waiting and loves it so much. The oldest doesn't necessarily talk to the baby as much - but tells me she is excited for its parents and can't wait to meet this little human.
I could not have gotten through any of this without my husband. From the initial morning sickness when he picked up the slack, to being just tired and he not saying a word when dishes would build up or laundry might be sitting a while ... and now when I am just a bit slower to do stuff. He has never complained. I can't imagine a better person to have at my side for this.
And the kids. Who never complain, who ask the most random of questions at Dr appts perhaps a bit too loud at times while in bathrooms or the office ... and who care for this baby but know that it will soon go live with its mommy and daddy - I look at them every single day and remember why I am doing this. I can not imagine my life without my kids - even on the worst days ever - and I can not imagine the feeling of struggling to have children. To anyone reading who has traveled that dark road, or who is - my heart is with you. I have no clue of what you go through - but my heart is with you and I wish you everything and more.
And my momma. From taking care of the kids while we had appointments and the transfer out of state, to being on call right now for the birth and just overall supporting this even when I think she was a bit nervous for me before it all began ... we never could have made this go as smooth without her support.
And to everyone reading - I truly take every comment and hold it close. I have kept the journey pretty much to the group or my specific IG page not to overwhelm my personal page. So sometimes it feels pretty closed off from everyone since most of you know on my personal page I share our life story through photos and stories ... but knowing I have people supporting me/us and wishing this family the best as we go means a lot.
Now that I have been all sappy and crap. This will probably be the last post before I give birth. Crazy to consider but so exciting. My little one wants more puffs at 8:45am (don't judge, they are organic or something like that) and chocolate (almond) milk and I should get laundry actually started (it is sitting in the wash, just not on quite yet!).
With love and gratitude,
Kristen
Be First to Post Comment !
Post a Comment
Note: Only a member of this blog may post a comment.