As of Saturday I was officially done with injections.
In total, starting from December 28th, I have had:
24 Lupron injections &
48 PIO injections.
I administered every single one to myself.
Now I am proud - I mean, who wants to stab themselves daily (the answer if you are wondering, is no one. I will speak for everyone on that). But I cant help but think that I did this for only one cycle. One cycle that thankfully took and now a beautiful little baby is growing. There are women though who do this over, and over and over again. And are still left with a broken heart.
While the injection itself does not hurt, it is the knots that form, the blood, the bruises, the little puncture marks that start forming ... it all adds up and when the next injection needs to happen - at least for me - it became a little game at times to just get it done. I could not sit and think about it or it would have taken me forever. I had to remind myself WHY these needed to be done and the minute I did that - I had all the will I needed to get it done.
At the end of all the meds - I have no complaints. Just a little bit more insight of what women who fight infertility are doing day in and day out - and my medications, from reading blogs and instagram pages - are no where near what would need to happen if I were trying to conceive my own child. And again, I said a little - because I will never fully be able to understand or realize the toll it puts on you/them. I never want to sound like I know what infertility is like - because I dont and never will. I only know going through the surrogacy process is like, my feelings and emotions and how it has impacted me.
I have 2 more patches and 2 more suppositories left to do. Saturday at 1pm when I remove my patch, I will be completely weaned of my medications. That is so exciting. And Easter Sunday I will be 12 weeks pregnant. Can you believe how fast it is going?
I am still tired almost all the time. I hope weaning off meds helps a bit. The nausea still exists and hits pretty hard come evening. I have been severely slacking in meal planning. I really should have taken my own advice and done some freezer meals in advance. I will need to remember to do that before giving birth. While I wont have a baby to take care of (because news flash - my IPs will have their baby to love on then!!!) - I know I probably wont want to be cooking either the first few days.
Starbucks is still my go-to. A sweet friend sent me a gift card and I shed a tear using it today. Because hormones are crazy and it was just what I needed. It was very good too for the record. Starbucks just gets me.
Anyways .. I think that is all for the moment?
Back to trying to motivate myself to get some cleaning done!
In total, starting from December 28th, I have had:
24 Lupron injections &
48 PIO injections.
I administered every single one to myself.
Now I am proud - I mean, who wants to stab themselves daily (the answer if you are wondering, is no one. I will speak for everyone on that). But I cant help but think that I did this for only one cycle. One cycle that thankfully took and now a beautiful little baby is growing. There are women though who do this over, and over and over again. And are still left with a broken heart.
While the injection itself does not hurt, it is the knots that form, the blood, the bruises, the little puncture marks that start forming ... it all adds up and when the next injection needs to happen - at least for me - it became a little game at times to just get it done. I could not sit and think about it or it would have taken me forever. I had to remind myself WHY these needed to be done and the minute I did that - I had all the will I needed to get it done.
At the end of all the meds - I have no complaints. Just a little bit more insight of what women who fight infertility are doing day in and day out - and my medications, from reading blogs and instagram pages - are no where near what would need to happen if I were trying to conceive my own child. And again, I said a little - because I will never fully be able to understand or realize the toll it puts on you/them. I never want to sound like I know what infertility is like - because I dont and never will. I only know going through the surrogacy process is like, my feelings and emotions and how it has impacted me.
I have 2 more patches and 2 more suppositories left to do. Saturday at 1pm when I remove my patch, I will be completely weaned of my medications. That is so exciting. And Easter Sunday I will be 12 weeks pregnant. Can you believe how fast it is going?
I am still tired almost all the time. I hope weaning off meds helps a bit. The nausea still exists and hits pretty hard come evening. I have been severely slacking in meal planning. I really should have taken my own advice and done some freezer meals in advance. I will need to remember to do that before giving birth. While I wont have a baby to take care of (because news flash - my IPs will have their baby to love on then!!!) - I know I probably wont want to be cooking either the first few days.
Starbucks is still my go-to. A sweet friend sent me a gift card and I shed a tear using it today. Because hormones are crazy and it was just what I needed. It was very good too for the record. Starbucks just gets me.
Anyways .. I think that is all for the moment?
Back to trying to motivate myself to get some cleaning done!
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